10-04-2016, 12:33 AM
Feeling shitty for feeling shitty is a wonderful phrase. I commend you for sharing your experience and doing so so eloquently. Of course, I am sure a certain cross section of the board thinks you are an alt and I am a fool for believing someone would want to talk about his reality on ye old MB, but colour me dumbass... and, I can relate somewhat to what you are going through.
I was just doing my dishes and listening to Tony Rice sing Streets of London, and it goes right to that feeling shitty for feeling shitty vibe. "How can you tell me that you're mournin'? And you say for you that the sun don't shine? Let me take you by the hand and lead you through the streets of London! I'll show you something, that may change your mind" is the refrain of this song that points out what you pointed out in the OP - some people have it so much rougher. And knowing they do and feeling powerless to help them just makes me feel worse. And feeling like I am running in place with my own problems just kind of compounds it...
I am struggling with some chronic pain, some emotional issues, some financial issues, and a host of other shit... but there are people to whom my life would look pretty good. I am a millionaire in friends and most of my family is OK and I am on pretty good terms with all of them, so a lot to be grateful for, but a lot of shit on my plate right now just the same.
I wish I had a solution for me or some insight for you that might help you navigate the path you are on, but at this point I have neither. Another song I think of often does include this wisdom:
Sometimes the best path will not guide you
You can't see what's round the bend
Sometimes the road leads to dark places
Sometimes the darkness is your friend
My perception is you are a good dude. I know it isn't easy to admit when you are struggling, but I commend you for it, I thank you for it as it reminds me I am not alone in facing seemingly insurmountable challenges, and I wish you better days ahead.
I was just doing my dishes and listening to Tony Rice sing Streets of London, and it goes right to that feeling shitty for feeling shitty vibe. "How can you tell me that you're mournin'? And you say for you that the sun don't shine? Let me take you by the hand and lead you through the streets of London! I'll show you something, that may change your mind" is the refrain of this song that points out what you pointed out in the OP - some people have it so much rougher. And knowing they do and feeling powerless to help them just makes me feel worse. And feeling like I am running in place with my own problems just kind of compounds it...
I am struggling with some chronic pain, some emotional issues, some financial issues, and a host of other shit... but there are people to whom my life would look pretty good. I am a millionaire in friends and most of my family is OK and I am on pretty good terms with all of them, so a lot to be grateful for, but a lot of shit on my plate right now just the same.
I wish I had a solution for me or some insight for you that might help you navigate the path you are on, but at this point I have neither. Another song I think of often does include this wisdom:
Sometimes the best path will not guide you
You can't see what's round the bend
Sometimes the road leads to dark places
Sometimes the darkness is your friend
My perception is you are a good dude. I know it isn't easy to admit when you are struggling, but I commend you for it, I thank you for it as it reminds me I am not alone in facing seemingly insurmountable challenges, and I wish you better days ahead.
JOHN ROBERTS: From time to time in the years to come, I hope you will be treated unfairly so that you will come to know the value of justice... I wish you bad luck, again, from time to time so that you will be conscious of the role of chance in life and understand that your success is not completely deserved and that the failure of others is not completely deserved either.
