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(10-04-2016, 12:33 AM)xxlt Wrote: Feeling shitty for feeling shitty is a wonderful phrase. I commend you for sharing your experience and doing so so eloquently. Of course, I am sure a certain cross section of the board thinks you are an alt and I am a fool for believing someone would want to talk about his reality on ye old MB, but colour me dumbass... and, I can relate somewhat to what you are going through.

I was just doing my dishes and listening to Tony Rice sing Streets of London, and it goes right to that feeling shitty for feeling shitty vibe. "How can you tell me that you're mournin'? And you say for you that the sun don't shine? Let me take you by the hand and lead you through the streets of London! I'll show you something, that may change your mind" is the refrain of this song that points out what you pointed out in the OP - some people have it so much rougher. And knowing they do and feeling powerless to help them just makes me feel worse. And feeling like I am running in place with my own problems just kind of compounds it...

I am struggling with some chronic pain, some emotional issues, some financial issues, and a host of other shit... but there are people to whom my life would look pretty good. I am a millionaire in friends and most of my family is OK and I am on pretty good terms with all of them, so a lot to be grateful for, but a lot of shit on my plate right now just the same.

I wish I had a solution for me or some insight for you that might help you navigate the path you are on, but at this point I have neither. Another song I think of often does include this wisdom:

Sometimes the best path will not guide you
You can't see what's round the bend
Sometimes the road leads to dark places
Sometimes the darkness is your friend

My perception is you are a good dude. I know it isn't easy to admit when you are struggling, but I commend you for it, I thank you for it as it reminds me I am not alone in facing seemingly insurmountable challenges, and I wish you better days ahead.

Wow. Thank you very much for this. You're right it helps a lot to know someone else, while not the biggest problems in the world, is struggling through the daily grind. It gets the most difficult when the days all start to seem the same but I know we have the power to change that. Thanks for saying I'm a good dude. You've always struck me as a particularly empathetic person, and to be honest, I'm not surprised in the least that you replied to this xxlt   I'm sorry to hear about your chronic pain and emotional issues. I know that can seriously be a tough 1-2 punch. I really like the lyrics to the two songs you posted. It's difficult sometimes to not get tied down to your past feelings and memories. Just so you know, you'll always have a friend on here who will hear you out.