Trying to quit smoking

[HarleyDog]

(07-13-2015, 02:15 PM)Benton Wrote: I used Chantix after using nicotine gum. Gum for a couple years, Chantix to quit the gum. I know more people who Chantix doesn't work for than those it did, but I took it for two days and didn't want nicotine at all. I took it a full week to make sure, and haven't looked back. That was a few years ago. I was a two pack a day smoker before that.

It's rough, but you can do it. The best thing to do though is move and don't go anywhere you normally smoke.

I have a slice on my neck from my ear to my esophagus from a surgery two years ago to clean out my carotid artery. I also have aortic stenosis which the valve will have to be replaced within the next few years. Heart Dr. gives me lectures everytime I go see him because I'm still smoking. When I mean lectures, the dude is pretty ruthless. So anyway, as I've been feeling not as well the last few months, I decided I was going to try and quit.

I started Chantix yesterday. I've been on it before and failed and had zero side effects. Good lord, not the case this time around. After a few hours of taking the pill yesterday, I started feeling depressed. This morning, as I walk out onto the porch to have my morning smoke I am having strong thoughts that I've accomplished nothing in life and that I'm a terrible husband and father. I felt anxious, depressed on the edge of crying. I was like, WTF? I had to reason with myself that these things are not true. It was a powerful feeling of depression that covered me like a cold wet blanket.

Not taking that shit today. I can just see me going to work tomorrow and start crying or something ridiculous because my stapler broke. However, I will give it a shot again and start next Friday and hope those side effects ween out before Monday. If not, I will go back to the patches. I was able to quit for 2yrs on those. But I wore the patches for a year which is a no-no. Yet the way I figured it, it was better than the alternative.

I wish the side effects of wet dreams were what I was experiencing. No, I get stuck with the "Your a peice of shit and deserve to die" effect. Maybe if I crush it and snort it off my wifes ass, things will be different?