06-28-2018, 11:13 AM
(06-28-2018, 05:13 AM)grampahol Wrote: I have remain hard on myself about these things . They nearly destroyed my life and almost sent me to prison on numerous occasions . I have a pretty good life now, but I recognize just how easy it would be to slide back to the old crap I got away with for too long . My son is still doing some of the same crap I did and just now beginning to come to terms with it to turn his own life around .
The easiest thing would be to tell myself I can handle a case of beer every few days or shoot an 8 ball up, but I know exactly where it would lead me to ..I have too much to lose. It's not the money. I really don't care about the money, but I never want my grandkids or my kids for that matter to go through the same kind of bs I put myself through. 20 years in and out of jail and rehab is no life .
The life I lived is not something I'm proud of ,but I'll never pretend it didn't happen or pretend it didn't affect the people I care about.
20 years ago this kind of stuff would have set rotting away in a basement at best. My tools and workshop would have been sold off for drug money .. I like being able to make nice things for people and just give them away because I can. Back then I would have sold it all off and gotten nothing in return.. It's little stuff like this that keeps me from wanting to stay hard on myself .
I have alcoholics in my family. Very proud of folks who have the courage to deal with this horrible disease.
A kid getting a DUI is nothing more than an opportunity to grow as a person. We have all been there one way or the other.