Getting a new puppy

[grampahol]

I love dogs and probably always will, but I'll likely never have another because I almost always outlive them (or have so far anyway) or they run away, get hit by cars, get stolen or I've had to move and unable to take them with me. The last three-four dogs I've had had to be taken from me for one reason or the other and the feeling of remorse, shame, regret and grief is just too much. My favorite of all time, a very gentle pit-chow just vanished one day with no answers. We suspect he was stolen to be turned into a fighting dog, but we have no proof. A few days before he vanished he's been in a fight with a big rott on our front porch that went on far too long and likely grabbed the attention of someone who wanted to fight him, but we'll never know..
Anyway.I can't go through it again. The last dog we had was very destructive so the Mrs decided to send her away just as I got used to her being around.. I can't go through another 6 months of missing another dog. I still miss my favorite over 10 years after the fact even though if he were still with me I would have undoubtedly outlived him.. 
Right now I'm still feeding an old, elderly, declawed outdoor cat (She lost all her indoor manners) and her days are numbered. She'll be the last.. 
None of this even mentions my inability to afford veterinary bills if they get sick or injured.. I've had to put a few down.. I just can't go through it again.
Best of luck with your pup. I'd like to say I'm envious, but I'm not..