I just got out of the hospital

[grampahol]

Thanks..I am recovering although a bit slower than the last stent 10 years ago. Blood thinners really kick my ass more than for most people I guess. I've been really dizzy the past day and a half. I now have to watch my blood pressure that was never a big deal for me, but is now and I'm having to figure out a way to quit smoking. I've always had an addictive personality, been through years of alcoholism, heroin addiction etc. Cigarettes are the only one I haven't been able to kick yet..but at least I've kept them down to less than half a pack ..and yes..I know I have to quit for good. 
Strange part is I don't even think about smoking while in the hospital or even *caugh caugh* jail.. Maybe I'll go get myself arrested.. On second thought I think I'll just quit smoking.  My kids were in tears so I don't want to put them through something I can control..not to mention I love the old woman too. They kind of count on me for a lot and I want to keep it that way for awhile.  It's been really tough on my son. My father passed away a few weeks ago when my son showed up a few days before then I went and had a heart attack a few weeks later. He's been through his own self imposed hell with his own drinking problems.  Maybe I can help him find a way out along with myself. He deserves a better life. He's a good kid and I let him down when he was growing up. Time for it to all change starting now.