How do you deal with loss?

[grampahol]

I went through a period when my friends and some family were dying left and right. In a two year period I lost 4 friends, my mother and a few others I knew and I was sure that I was next since I struggled with addiction and other problems. Poverty was a problem and I had to leave the state and my family behind which eventually led to the breakup between myself and my wife at the time. It took me about 10 years just to get some semblence of normalcy back and to this day I find it hard to express how I feel towards people, even my current old lady. I became a caregiver for three different old people and now they've all passed away and my own health isn't doing that great, but I'm still kicking. Best I can tell you is to try to find things in this life that give you joy and appreciate the little things that make you get up in the morning to put your pants on and go about your day.