Returning Animosity to where it belongs

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(05-15-2021, 01:20 AM)Murdock2420 Wrote: It's sad, I didn't used to be so annoyed about things. On the old board and even when I first came to this board, I didn't post a ton and was more just wanting to talk with other fans and discuss things.

The past few seasons have just jaded me and made me rather bitter towards Mike Brown and the team and honestly I don't like that. I used to enjoy watching the games on Sunday and now it's more just waiting to see how they will screw things up next. It sucks, I really just want to get back to having faith in the team, well until the playoffs of course. I've liked talking with fellow Bengal fans and all the fun of crapping on the Browns and hating on the Steelers. Going to try to get back to that point, and maybe just be less invested in the team emotionally, and return to when it was just an excuse to drink with friends and watch the game.

I hear ya.  It is like a bad codependent relationship:  They treat me poorly and I keep coming back for more.  

I sincerely tried to become the fan that just "enjoys the game" and doesn't get "worked up" or anything.  I would tell myself each time that it doesn't really matter and I am just going to watch the game and enjoy....only to find myself yelling at the TV and jumping up and down when they score.  Being at the games was worse.  Our section was awesome and we would get so fired up and have no voice by the end of the game. 

I finally just gave up and said:  "Hey, this is me....can't change it" and know that I will always feel such hate for the fat pig QB at that state to the East that my blood boils.  I will always find ways for the Bengals to do the unthinkable, and have that magical Super Bowl Victory Season.  Most recently, I was so excited to have new coaches (Marv was a nice guy and talent evaluator, but I felt "limited" with him) only to have major let downs.  Now, that coaching staff has turned the roster and, most importantly, we have Joe Burrow.

Watching that guy play last year felt so different.  It became that any time he cocked his arm, I would think "He's got someone", instead of "Oh, God, I hope this isn't a pick".  He has brought so much optimism that I even feel the team believes it.  Now that the old guard is completely purged, it is 100% his team, and I can't wait to see what he does with it.