Sometimes a hotline just isn’t enough

[Vas Deferens]

Can't beat yourself up about it man. Really can't think of anything good that could come from that. Like you already mentioned, once things stabilize a bit, its important you go and talk to a professional about what you've been through.

You're a good man with big heart. I'm sure she feels very lucky to have a person like you to help her through this difficult time, regardless if she's able to express that sentiment well at the moment. Remember that and keep moving forward. Confident you can do it.